mystic_theurge

much needed explanation

2009-01-22T01:30:13Z

i should apologize to everyone that i've been harsh, bitter, or resentful towards. With my shi date coming ever closer, i'm truely starting to realize the full weight of everything that either needs to be done, or needs to get done when i get back. i need to get an apartment that will run $1550 a month (fucking ridiculous how much money that will be), i need to get a car, need to start going to school, need to decide wether or not to go to Afghanistan with my unit, survive for 6 months alone, enroll in schools all across mass so that i can go to school in the same general area as ashley, fucking drop about 40 lbs for basic, pass my senior year, work on a 300 page book for senior project, save money for when i will finally need it, learn how to force myself through the most basic of tasks. the list is endless. to much stuff constantly buzzing around in my head, to many 'what if's', so i apologize for being the way i've been lately. it' just hat there's to much pressure at the moment. sorry for whinning

hi everyone =]

2008-12-01T22:24:21Z

wow, it's been a really long time since i've used this online journal, i guess it's just not something that really suits me. however i think it's good for one thing, and that's to rant for no other reason than as a sort of self therapy. most people rant about how life sucks, or how they hate current situations.

if any of you don't know i joined the army national guard, and for the most part i love it, problem is that i'm not so much into the idea of going away for 7 months after high school. it makes me feel... rushed. to me it feels kind of like i have to hurry up and do everything that needs to be done within the next few months or i'm done. not going to be able to go back and do it again. i on't know, kind of like, my life, or what it has become up untill this point is going to end very very soon. and to all of the friends that i've lost, or am about to lose in the next few months, sorry, but i guess it's just me trying to ease out of my old life, no turning back now =/

i'm glad for one thing though. and that's ashley. i never thought that anyone in this world would ever be caoable of making me this happy. sometimes i get so happy that my vision starts to blur. i'm glad, because in her i see a connection to my past and my future, one that'll hopefully stay by my side for a long long time to come. god, i love this girl. words will never be able to explain it, it's like i've finally found the rest of me. i know taht sounds so utterly cliche and stupid, but hey, it's the only way i can state it. =] love you <333 /hug

but anyways, i really hope that i can get through this year with good enough grades to go to a decent college, wish me luck people ^^; ima need everything in me to focus and actually do work for a change

Hello world, welcome to the darkness.

2008-07-25T19:11:26Z

breathe in deep
smell these halls of hate
carve your name into these walls
before it is too late
cold and twisted
they resisted
what was I to do
all I ever wanted was
a fraction of the truth

walking in the shadows
of my blackened mind
lost inside this shallow
vanity of time

what if there's a God a hell and heaven
fire is the torment I must face
dying by the souls I have forsaken
no one's going to catch my fall from grace

(bleed on me)
watch me from your cage
as I rejoin my painful prime
(suffer and exhale)
you and I are relics
w eprovoke and we recline

walking in the shadows
of my blackened mind
angels crave my sorrow
sorrow they will find

what if there's a God a hell and heaven
fire is the torment I must face
dying by the souls I have forsaken
no one's going to catch my fall from grace

walking in the shadows
of my blackened mind
angels crave my sorrow
sorrow they will find

sorry for not posting in such a long time ^^;

2008-04-21T11:58:06Z

so. let's begin with the basics. i'm still madly in love with a particular ashley campo, everything seems to be goingso tremendously well between us, words can't describe this euphoria. so that at least is still a very good constant.

as for other things, for those of you that don't already know my brother came home from Basic. and let me say that he is like one of the coolest guys of all time, he has changed for the better in every single way. and that aside also, nothing much has been going on ion my life since my last post. i've been working alot lately, and working nearly every day this week during the night. annnnnd, i've been finally gettign around to reading some of the books that i've been wanting to read for like a good year or so now. i had forgotten how much one seris in particular means to me, i lvoe reading, and gamiong. which leads to the next topic. as of late i've been in a very intense reading mood, which means that i haven't really spen any time on my gaming asides from COD4. this will be changing very soon, once i finish the book that i am on i'll be getting EQ2...again. should be a good time, also i want to start getting back into using my 360 on a regular basis, so for those of you that don't hav LJ but still read mine (there's like 7 of you i think) my gammer tag is Yakuz Outcast. look me up if you ever get bored =] and that's about it really, once i get my money on wensday i'll be getting EQ2 and then i'll probablly save the rest for a really nice Heron marked blade. plans for sometime during this week off from school? =3

mystic_theurge @ 2008-03-18T22:04:00

2008-03-19T02:05:11Z

anime boston in about 2 days =] i'm so insanly pumped

=]

2008-03-18T06:28:14Z

so it's been about 3 weeks since my last livejournal entry. and to be honest, not to much has changed on those three weeks. i joined track, that's about iot ^^; and i jsut realized that it'll be my 2 month with ashley on wensday. it's almost sicking just how fast time seems to slip away. although i'm glad that i'll at least get to see that time fly by in the arms of mi amor

mystic_theurge @ 2008-02-24T22:18:00

2008-02-25T03:20:07Z

We'll never die alone,
Juggalos will carry on
Swing our hatchets if we must!
Each and every one of us

fadgasdf

2008-02-22T16:10:43Z

D&D was fucking epic man. awsome job andrew =] words can't describe how amazing it was

mystic_theurge @ 2008-02-21T15:23:00

2008-02-21T20:23:52Z

last night was such a good night. a lunar eclipse to please the masses, twas beautiful

lalalala

2008-02-19T20:50:39Z

things are starting to get painfully monotonus. cept for with her that is. yuhhh, will someone blow up my kitty or somethng for a little change of pace? :D hmm.... yup, sucks considering this is my first entry in over a week and it's all bad xD only thing i could talk about that is good is her, and i don't feel like ranting about how amazingly perfect she is =3 (love youu) well, back to WoW: Stormbrewer, playing on Ravencrest for those of you that don't already know and want to meet up [=

lmao

2008-02-10T15:38:52Z

who would have thought that i could have such an amazing night at a high school dance?! mhmmm, i love you

mystic_theurge @ 2008-01-26T20:23:00

2008-01-27T01:24:28Z

woah. woahhhhh. such an epic day.

mystic_theurge @ 2008-01-19T19:48:00

2008-01-20T01:00:27Z

i never th ought i could love anyone this much. to be honest i barely know what to do, she's so amazing that it's even got me back on my heels, i used to pride myself on my ability to remain calm and composed no matter the situation. yet you've managed to find a way to break through that sheild of mine, my mind goes blank, and all i can do is smile when i look or even think about you. yuh, i'm crazy. oh well =]

but i digress! i have not posted a real entry on my LJ in quite some time. so i'll stat from the begining, errr. actually i'm, not that sure n_n; i gotz WoW again, this time i'm not going to cancel my subscription, curently lvl 20 tauren Warrior, chillen out in the Ghost Lands of Raven Crest. look me up if you get the chance i'm useually on if i have nothing to dire to do. yuh, such a good game.

D< BELLA SWAN IS THE MOST RETARDED PERSON I"VE EVER READ ABOUT! JUST STFU AND DECIDE WHAT THE HELL YOUR GOING TO DO!

<333 /happiness seizure

Familey guy star wars spoof was like the greatest thing i have ever seen xD could abrely stop laguhing, sorry abou that guys =P just so good, could not contain my mirth. oh wait, was i not here to talk about stuffz?

ah, here we go. yeah, only major thing that's happened are the midterms. all of which have been going extremly well. i will probablly aqiuest my lowest grade on my math midterm, i blame rusty for distracting me with talk of WoW/ HIM / She Wants Revenge / Stories of our similar childhoods /other amzing things. but it's all worth it.

speaking of school, i've come to the conclusion of 3 things that i will want to do as a profession once i grow up. i still want to become a writter, that's been my dream for as long as i can seriously remember. and of course msot people probablly know that i want to major in chemistry becuase that is my absolute favorite subject. but something new has just arisen into the battle field that is my life. i was thinking possibly a lawer? not sure. i did research on Harvard, and remarkably enough i have all the credntials needed to get in minus the S.A.T. grades (becuase i haven't taken them yet) but yeah, i don think i would mind being a lawer, i like being challenged and being able to use my head in every possible ways. plus there is pretty decent pay in that carrer ^^ oh wellz, that should be it for now.

and one more time, i love you.

mystic_theurge @ 2008-01-18T22:09:00

2008-01-19T03:12:19Z

"Todayyyy

Was the best day of my liiiiife.

And I can say that, because as I reflected upon the events of today, I didn't regret a thing except parting.

I don't think I've ever felt this way before. "

i copy pasted this from her, seriously now, i couldn't have put it any better myself. simply win. i can still hardly belive that this is real. if it's a dream, then don't let me wake up. if it's not, then don't let me screw this up. regardless, i love you. always will. asdbg asuksyuvf asdykcvfacfascfasd xcf asty <3 /blush /happyness seizure /love. =]

nuff said

2008-01-18T02:27:07Z

mhmmm

2008-01-15T18:50:42Z

everything seems to be getting so much better. can't even describe it, just, -sigh- just good =] except for WoW servers being down D<

ohhh god

2008-01-13T23:17:58Z

i love my friends xD

mhm

2008-01-13T05:03:01Z

yet anotehr year. yet another regret.

errr. not sure how i manged this considering 90% of my answers were as lovey as they could get

2008-01-10T02:50:25Z

It takes a special kind of uke to handle the punishment you dish out. Making them beg for mercy is what you're all about. You give your uke the gift of pain, and the louder their moans are, the more satisfied with the relationship you'll be. It's no fun if they don't struggle, and struggle and torture is what the Dramatic Uke, your perfect match, lives for.

n_n

2008-01-08T03:09:37Z

Brenton = one of the most epic people i know. we used to talk like once every month or so for like 2 minutes, but then we got seated one behind the other in math class. jesus.christ. the things we have in common =P we like all the same things. and we just chill all the time. then we started playing WoW together, pretty epic, and with ashley as an addition to our already formidable pair nights spent on WoW are like the best ever n_n

BOREDDDD

2008-01-05T15:41:58Z

1. Name, please?
Kenny

2. Okay, who was the last person who held your hand?
uhh, don remind me 'o her yo

3. Have you ever kissed someone with braces?
would it make a difference? that means no

4. Who is the fourth received call on your call log?
Ashely

5. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Green, i love green eyes

6. What is the wallpaper on your phone?
Generic cingular thing

7. How many pillows are on your bed?
-looks over- well there's supposed to be two, but one of them is half way across my room, not sure how it got there either...

8. Who was the last text message you sent to?
ashley

9. Is there someone you can't stop thinking about?
there is for everyone.

10. What was the best thing that happened to you this year?
well, considering that there has noly been a grand total of like 4 days in this year, nothing really

11. Have you ever had a surprise birthday party?
heh, i guess you could say that

12. Who/what is the fourth person on your contact list?
what's a contact list? O_O

13. When's the last time you cried?
errr, long long time ago. i don't useually cry

14. What school did you attend in primary?
uhh, Warner

15. Do you have a crush on somebody?
once again, don't we all

16. Who was the last person that made you laugh?
Karrie Gorman ^-^

17. Who do you make fun of the most?
My favorite canadian nazi jen of course!

18. What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone?
Sometime like a year ago with winnona, went from 8 p.m.- 5 a.m.

19. How many 20 dollar bills do you have on you right now?
7!!!! ohhh i love having a job

20. Have you seen your best friend cry?
nope

21. Where did you last go out to eat?
huh, good question. prolly ashelys hosue, where me and malhoit had like 20 buns each

22. Do you dance in the car?
When i'm driving? no. when i'm not driving the closest i get to danceing is tapping my foot

23. Who was your last picture message from?
never recived a picture message

24. And your last text message from?
ashley

25. What is the one thing that you cannot stand?
lots of things n_n liers, cheaters, back stabbers, that sort of stuff

26. Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you're sleeping?
well, i don't really know, the few times that i am asleep i'm out like a rock. otherwise she useually vacumms when she gets home from work

27. Are your parents in love?
for the most part i would think so. but some times my dad can be a complete ass hole to my mom

28. How did you get your last bruise?
honestly i have no idea. i woke up one day with an egg plant sied bruise on my arm

29. Would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over?
ratehr go to a friends house, there's like nothing to do at my house. then my mom starts talking to people in spanish

30. Who is in your house right now?
me and my kitty

31. What do you smell like right now?
i smell like world of warcraft of course

32. Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
not at all, if i'm wrong i'm wrong, no point in trying to argue the fact

33. What makes you lose your appetite?
not sure, i'll tell you the first time i actually lose my apetite =P

34. What color is your laundry basket?
my laundry what now? it all goes on the floor, so i guess the color would be hard wood?

35. Does your mom make you wear a winter coat?
she tells me i should wear one, but she dosn't enforce it or anything

36. Does it contain fur?
only jacket i have is black with spikes and straps and such

37. Do you own any Hollister polos?
i know hollister is a store, but what the hell is a polo?

38. Do you think those stores are too expensive?
suree

39. Where do you shop at most?
online

40. Can you go on MySpace from school or work?
only computer at work is the cash register, so no. school computers are locked, but hey with every block there's a way to circumvent it

41. Do your parents have a MySpace account?
xDDD

42. What's your favorite season?
winter <3

43. Whats your favorite number?
errr 23

44. Do you get along with your parents?
we don't necasatily get along so much as tolerate each otehr. my mom's easier to deal with, but my dad's alot cooler

45. What are you listening to?
She want's revenge/ ill nino

46. What are your favorite colors?
red

47. Have you ever thought that your life was so bad you wanted to give up?
err. on to next question plzz

48. Do you have any tattoos?
in a few months i will

49. How many piercings do you have?
right now i have one, but i need like 4 more to do the zero cosplay ^_^

50. Would you ever take an ex back?
huh. another strange question. let's see here. i guess it depsnds on how it is we broke up, the reason why it happened. things like that

-sigh-

2008-01-04T22:49:52Z

well, that's that i suppose.

mystic_theurge @ 2007-12-28T20:31:00

2007-12-29T01:32:08Z

such a good day today at ashleys. yup yup. game nights = win

well

2007-12-27T03:16:00Z

i finally got my computer fixed. i won't bother describing my christmas or my vacation thus far, if you ask i'll tell you. but for all it's worth so far it's going rather well =] if there is something going on call eitehr my house or my cell. i have a lot of gaming to do, so i will either be on my 360 or playing on the computer or building some models or reading or something. point is i won't be on AIM, well, that's about it n_n

mystic_theurge @ 2007-12-17T17:20:00

2007-12-17T22:25:56Z

sooo. any one have any plans for christmas break / new years or anything? i think we should all neglect work and just play videogames or D&D or both. annnd friday is gonna be fucking epic as hell man. i have enough money to go watch Sweeny Todd. but i also must see I Am Legend that day toooo