wow, it's been a really long time since i've used this online journal, i guess it's just not something that really suits me. however i think it's good for one thing, and that's to rant for no other reason than as a sort of self therapy. most people rant about how life sucks, or how they hate current situations.
if any of you don't know i joined the army national guard, and for the most part i love it, problem is that i'm not so much into the idea of going away for 7 months after high school. it makes me feel... rushed. to me it feels kind of like i have to hurry up and do everything that needs to be done within the next few months or i'm done. not going to be able to go back and do it again. i on't know, kind of like, my life, or what it has become up untill this point is going to end very very soon. and to all of the friends that i've lost, or am about to lose in the next few months, sorry, but i guess it's just me trying to ease out of my old life, no turning back now =/
i'm glad for one thing though. and that's ashley. i never thought that anyone in this world would ever be caoable of making me this happy. sometimes i get so happy that my vision starts to blur. i'm glad, because in her i see a connection to my past and my future, one that'll hopefully stay by my side for a long long time to come. god, i love this girl. words will never be able to explain it, it's like i've finally found the rest of me. i know taht sounds so utterly cliche and stupid, but hey, it's the only way i can state it. =] love you <333 /hug
but anyways, i really hope that i can get through this year with good enough grades to go to a decent college, wish me luck people ^^; ima need everything in me to focus and actually do work for a change
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